I just want to enjoy December as I do any other month. I think the main issue is not being allowed to feel as if I can step back and let others enjoy it if they want to.
I was having a nice evening with my friend and she said what are you doing for Christmas as if Ive got be be somewhere doing something to enjoy myself. The inference is which family member am I going to be bundled off to and the feeling that anybody is going to be sad if not joining the forced fun.
I get cards from people that have never phoned me and I havent phoned in years. Think about it...how ridiculous is that and you cant tell them not to bother or Im looked at like some sort of personality disorder loon.
The present giving and receiving lost any meaning for me about twenty five years ago and it was only any real fun opening a giant stocking as a kid. That was magical and perhaps thats where we should leave it for children to enjoy...then again the pressure is on for those children (and their parents) who wont get anything
I would rather my extended family bought a meal or treat for a homeless person or somebody in real need
Its such a stitch up job that anybody is seen as Scrooge McScrooge Face if they dont get into the spirit of Christmas :)